As I open my eyes
I can feel a stinging sensation
I do not close them, but keep them open
And ignore the pain so I may see
I am encased in blue
It surrounds me
And tosses me about
It swallows me whole
Making me feel powerless
I look up and see the fractured sunlight
Glimmering like a precious stone
And I know that it is part of a different world
The one I will not be part of any longer
I am going elsewhere
And shall never return.
My lungs are aching now
I cannot hold my breath anymore
So I inhale the blue surrounding me
It fills my lungs
I have never felt pain quite like this before
It is the type of pain
That will make one feel small and weak
A desperate kind of pain; a relentless one
But it will be over shortly.
I make sure not to close my eyes
And focus on the chiseled diamond in the sky
I can see the shapes of other people above me
They are happy
For they are ignorant
They do not know that I am below them, preparing to take my final breath
I think I am crying
But I cannot tell; there is water all around me.
I feel myself tremble
Not because I am cold
I am shaking with fear
Fear of what lies ahead
In the next world
The fear is fading now
Along with my vision
I am not quite here
But I am not yet gone
I simply am.
I do not see the light now
I see images of the past
And images that are foreign
There are bright colors
Rapidly flickering and moving
The images leave just as quickly as they appeared.
I am alone with the darkness
And now, as the last bit of air escapes my lungs
I know that I am doing the right thing
The rest I go to now
Is a more peaceful rest than I have ever had...