Shrouded by darkness, it lingers here within a part of my heart. It does not leave nor part
Clouds my mind with what ifs and why nots
I can\'t make it stop. I try and try to break myself from it
The chains that still bind me
Will I ever break free? Will I ever forget you?
Why must love linger around me, with memories of what was but never could have been?
Someday I wish to love again
Until then I must fight my \"demon\"
It calls to me, beckoning me with a promise of change-
A change that comes too late and was never there
Suffocating the very air I breathe, manipulating the heart and mind
A brain washed with false love, blind sided, broken and torn
My heart scorned as the realization set in, a mask to cover it up the true pain
A risk where true love couldn\'t be seen
So I ran as far as I could pushing people away as I went to free myself
A past filled with abuse, lies and pain
For it is now freedom I\'ve given myself
A girl lost for so many years, masked by my worst fear
I can now finally find.
Spent wandering among loneliness
I vaguely see the light, dimmed but visible enough for my eyes to see
As a tree I shall rise and overcome, slow to start but growing each day
Reaching the sky soon enough able to see that it was that very \"demon\" I needed.