6th grade. The year I started questioning my sexuality.
2. I spent 2 years trying to conform to \"normality.\"
700. I cried myself to sleep for 700 days.
42. The amount of times I was told \"it\'s just a phase.\"
682. The amount of times I prayed to change who I am.
682. Also the amount of times I believed I would be damned.
103. I had 103 nightmares about people calling me a \"dyke.\"
Waking up in tears and feared being disliked
389. How many times I\'ve heard homophobic comments.
Every time I heard them I just wanted to vomit.
December 16. The day I got my first girlfriend.
38. The amount ot times I was afraid something bad would happen if I held her hand.
22. How many times I\'ve contemplated self-harm
0. Luckily, I have 0 scars on my arm.
June 12. The day of the Orlando Shooting.
June 13. I heard the news and was afraid someone was out to get me.
And everyday I worry about what my parents will think.
Because without their acceptance I\'ll have a missing link.
16. The amount of times I was told that I was going to hell.
Making me wish I could push them down a freaking well.
Because you don\'t understand how I feel inside.
I\'m afraid of you. And I\'m afraid to show my pride.