I\'m not gonna lie
I so want to die
My life is a sham
I hate who I am
But I don\'t wanna say good-bye.
It\'s too late to change
My mind is deranged
My life here is through
I\'m no good for you
My poor brain is stupid & strange.
I used to be fine
Mostly toed the line
Then I wasn\'t true
To myself or you
Now for my youth I sorely pine.
Made mistakes galore
I\'m down on the floor
My face is in dirt
My body inert
But I\'m shaking deep in my core.
I need help to stand
I\'m stuck in quicksand
No one tries too hard
To pull up this lard
They don\'t see my stretched-out hand.
I\'m real old and spent
Wonder where life went
I lost all I had
So horribly sad
My Spirit is twisted and bent.
I\'m not gonna lie
I do want to die
My life is a sham
I hate who I am
And now I have to say good-bye.