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Story of My Life

There is no doubt that I am quiet

     or reserved

     or stoic

     or apathetic

But why? --

 

Because, in the third grade, I got made fun of because

     “boys don’t do gymnastics”

 

Because, there’s nothing more demoralizing than

being called a fairy, each and every day

 

Because, it can be hard to have great friends

     when nobody will speak to you

 

Because,

     “only queers cheerlead”

 

Because,

     “dance is for fags”

 

When an entire population of people

are constantly telling you how weird you are

how abnormal you are

you begin to believe them

 

You begin to believe that “real boys”

     don’t cheerlead

     or dance

     or write

 

And once you are made

to feel so remarkably puny

 

What is there to show?

 

Why would you want to showcase your shortcomings to the world?