The wonder in a baby\'s eye
Gives me the question why,
Why, am i sinking slowly,
Into the deepest holes of my mind,
More and more I begin to feel lonely,
As I distant myself from everything and everyone.
The wonder in a baby\'s eye,
Gives me a flush of emotion that used to lie,
Brought to the surface once more,
Although I have no clue wether,
They will take me further away from what\'s making me sore,
To a place I may finally be free from this misery.
I had trouble letting go of what I no longer need,
Holding me back from ever being the lead,
Struggling with the voices in my head,
the constant thoughts spinning out of control,
I fight to find myself in this wonderful world
The constant battle tires me down,
As I\'m afraid of always coming across as a clown,
Fearing the hatred of others and myself,
Am I good enough for the goals I give to the world,
Or will i fall deeper into my mind where there is no help,
And all I want is that hand to pull me back.
I fight to feel grounded and not to fly away,
Into the darkest corners of what i won\'t let lay,
I need an anchor to keep me from losing my mind,
But then again maybe it has already gone,
Somewhere far away that\'s difficult for me to find,
Close to my finger tips but like smoke it slips through.
But I couldn\'t be more pleased with who I am,
Learning to accept the mounds that means I can,
Trying my best to give myself that push into the unknown,
Into the hands of another love i fear to loose,
Something that I feel I have been shown,
Something that could be more than those dreams I crave.
I just need to stop self destructing,
And be open to every feeling,
The ugly constant and the beautiful calm,
And everything in between that grey sky,
Learning to shut those thoughts out that causes harm,
That hold me back from ever truly being free.
Once I have a hold of me,
Then I can let go and be free,
To be open to what will make me complete,
Open to the possibility of what I\'ve always wanted,
To be content with what I have and to no longer live in the past of what keeps me from sleep.