teenageheartbreak

Die this way

I debate, to show a smile like everything is good and pretend that life is great
I should let the world see the real me and not hide this pain
I tried to be like the rest of y\'all but sorry I just can\'t
Imma probably die this way

Probably lose my life this way

Hold it all in then one day finally detonate
Some may cry but others will go celebrate
Joke around and laugh while dancing on my grave
But I guess it\'s all okay

I had a tough life

I met a girl and thought that she would someday be my wife
To make her happy is all that I would ever strive
She still left me alone and now I steady cry
That I\'ll sleep alone at night

It\'s true that I gave that girl all I had
She took it and left, never gave it back
My friend said that they always had my back
Tried to speak but thought they weren\'t facts

I wonder if i were to try this twice
Make wrong decisions or make them right
I guess that I won\'t know until I try
I guess that I\'m gonna go see the light

Sorry to all that cannot relate
This has my mind in a big debate
To keep it all because it\'s not to late
Or to deathbed until nothing remains

People come and people go
That\'s a saying we all know
Why I felt so strong this time
Is something I will never know

No one has had me feel this way
When I gave love they gave me pain
For no reason I chose to stay
I couldn\'t let go for anything

To her I was so addicted
everything I admitted
She had my mind so conflicted
About why the hell to stay committed

If she\'s not giving back
Why still give to her
Why devalue myself
This is not my worth

I\'m running myself deep into the dirt
There\'s no guarantee that I will rebirth

Why keep on hiding
There\'s no point in trying
We only live once
There\'s no need to keep lying

I talk about dying
That I\'m always crying
People ask if I\'m okay
And I keep denying

In my mind is scary
Let\'s not try comparing
Don\'t ask for peek in
Or you\'ll just keep staring

I\'m not ordinary
I stay solitary
Why open up
If they\'re not really caring