Fading from my mind
So slowly, that it seems more like the fading-in of an ethereal entity that I may have called upon to assist me in my bidding
Shitting out the filth from the tear ducts of my eyes
In rivers of sadness that flow like a mass of soldiers, determined to fight some senseless battle
Some unexplained siege
Taking in all of their surroundings as they swim forward in a swarm of dense motion
Racing toward an unknown outpost that lies somewhere in the atmosphere up ahead
Taking my mentality along with it as it relentlessly clambers on
He is gone now
Nowhere in sight
I am really alone
Clairaudience cauterizes my entire being
Just as all of my senses start complaining of his absence, a voice rings through my ears
Crashing through the dark of the night
Sometimes the voices are many
Sometimes there is only one
For my thoughts, I pay way more than a penny
For my sanity, I must see to it that this battle is soon won
Before I dare step forward and get caught up in something else
There is no room for anymore ifs or maybes
No concept have I to leave anything that I truly love behind me to eat my dust
For few, such s concept is even understood
Their perceptions are animals that are extinct to the animal that lies within me
I will just never understand why the blindness that is inate to another becomes ultimately what sets their souls free
Did I really agree to this life that I have co-written?
Everyone seems so damned smitten by my ways
So. Then why do I find myself sitting here all alone, counting down the hours, the minutes, the days?
Fading into me as my skies above fade to the grey of a perpetual storm
Feeling all warm and fuzzy within
Feeding the seven deadly sins a five star culinary masterpiece of a meal, one course at a time
Doing hard time in a prison that makes Alcatraz look like an island paradise
I have committed way too many crimes against myself in the sacred name of love....
8-31-2009