Al·lur·ing
I miss him with every cell in my body
I miss the laughs and the smiles
I miss how everything felt so clear with him
He was the light in my darkness
And i hurt him
I still remember the first time i laid my eyes on him
My soul swelled up with happiness
I couldn’t keep my eyes off of him
He made me so happy
But now things have changed
I let my mind get in the way of a perfect love
Where has the time gone?
I am weak without him in my broken life
I feel small without him by my side
And i am not good with thoughts, words nor emotions but
When i am with him i know what i want…
And that’s him.
His smile fills me with pride
His eyes drown me in lust
His laugh cures my pain
And i want to get lost with him
I want to spend a lifetime in his arms
Listening to every word his has to say
Because everything makes sense when he speaks
He is the love of my life
I swear i will never love the same because
i have seen and tasted the sweetest of loves with him
The world seems lighter when he is near
The flowers are brighter and the birds sing louder
He is the center of my world
Center of my thoughts
He is beauty
He is life
He was mine.
And i left him.
I didn’t see how perfect he was until i left him
He is my love
I can’t believe i was so blind to see his perfection this whole time
Yet his heart is falling for another, how foolish i am to think this would work
While i thought we had something special he would rather find someone new
But new, isn’t going to be me, love you like me, kiss you like me, she isn’t me…
And while you were crushing on me you threw me away for her
So i don’t want to say these nice things anymore
Because i end up hurt…
Maybe i am stupid
maybe i fell for the wrong man maybe i am blind to see nobody wants me maybe i need to want for myself