do·mes·tic
i placed my trust in you.
i allowed you to hear my cries
and see my wounds
i allowed you in my life
and you learned my biggest flaws
and deepest fears
and then you left.
you left without thinking twice
you kissed her.
with knowing my reaction
would set my emotions on fire
and though you have done me wrong
i also have many faults
i blamed you for my pain at first
but now i see,
that it wasn’t always you
it was mostly me.
and though my heart longs for your affection
and my mind missing your attention
i will always fear you hurting me again
and now i believe that i am even more broken
and i think i confused myself
because i am craving your affection
more than i am missing you …
and i wish i had the answers
i wish you knew my questions
because i am crazy about you
but it will only result in tears
and i don’t know who to run to
because you were the only one who cared
and now i sit alone
wondering why i am here.
i don’t understand why i have gone through all of this
or why these bad things always happen…
drowning is different than swimming
when you drown you try to save yourself
you struggle to breathe
and you want to live
when you sink
you aren’t trying to save yourself
you are just sinking
down to the bottom of the ocean floor
i hate to say this
but i am no longer drowning
i am sinking