He is still a ghost
that hides in my head
Under the tongue he once tasted
Wasted away, our love
Reasons, unknown, at least to me
Haunted every now and then
When he takes a hold of my soul
I gasp for air
In my agony that he never seemed to care much about
I often wonder if he even cared for me at all
I fall to pieces, still, to this day
An exorcism would not take him away
I was so sure that I never wanted to see him go
This is not at all what I had in mind
I would rather just let him go completely
I do not only want to be with him in memories and in dreams that seem surreal
I don\'t know what it is that I feel anymore
I just know that I feel immensely
This ghost refuses to allow me to heal
From open wounds, it drinks my core
Torn apart by the brutal hands of fate
In my darkest night travels, I search for him and his gate
I believed him always when he told me such crazy tales and now I believe him even more
Keeper of the hidden lore written in ancient texts
Brought into this world and turned upside down
Thus, we both encounter this hex that is upon him
Invoking beings that have crawled all over and around me and have ruined everything that I have touched
It seems sickening to love someone as much as I love him
I always will
It is not something as simple as being born ill-fated
An egg from the dark ages
Incubated and hatched then it\'s contents attached themselves to the
shadows that surround us all
Lucky me to have fallen so deeply in love....
9-1-2010