When I can\'t speak for myself, tell them I tried to smile
Tell them I disregarded my pain to be the person they once knew
Tell them that I was so good at pretending that I even fooled you
Tell them, however sad, that it was all just a lie
Too broken, too complicated I couldn\'t to ask them to understand why
Tell them that I cared more about what was thought of me than of myself
Tell them that all this time I have been unsuccessfully seeking help
Tell them that when there was laughter I also screamed inside
Tell them that makeup was more than a beauty product I would buy
Tell them when I left home I left a part of me behind
Tell them it was the part I wanted to hide
Tell them they knew me, but did not know me at all
Tell them I loved them too much to catch me when I fall
Tell them that I stayed away & isolated more often than not
Tell them I did it for them, to spare them & not scare them off
Tell them the fresh bandages were not what they thought
Tell them the scars are from something that their not
Tell them I tired, but in the end it was too much
Tell them a 20 year war was more than enough
Tell them a story, what you\'d like them to remember
Tell them I\'m sorry that they did not know better
Tell them I died happier than I lived
Tell them not to cry, the end is where I begin
Tell them these things, for they will not believe it otherwise
Tell them I lied on purpose, I pulled the wool over their eyes
Tell them I would have rather they be happy than grieve in my sorrow
Tell them that I just could not see or survive one more tomorrow
Tell them they new not of the struggle I lived
Tell them I long suffered & finally gave in
Tell them to remember me exactly as I crafted that they do
Tell them that that is the better version of the two
When I cannot speak for myself, tell them the truth
Tell them with a peaceful understanding that I no longer need to act, hide or lie
Tell them I am home, I\'m happy & I\'m for once my smile is justified.