Doll in Wonderland

I Think I Want To Be Your Girlfriend After All

Late night insomnia

I\'m such a mess

Spinning out of control

Just wishing I knew where I stand with you.

Stomach in knots and

Tripping over myself

Trying to take my heart and put it back in my chest

Instead of being lodged in my throat

Maybe I\'ll kick it under the rug, instead

I like to think I fall gracefully

Like snowflakes

But in reality

It\'s more like a rock into a lake

And it hurts like a belly flop

I just want to kiss you so hard

Your mouth will bleed

Or have you bite my lip again

So I can run my tongue 

Over the broken skin

For days

A needed distraction

From trying to figure out

Why I like you so much more now

And daydreaming

About holding your hand

Exhausted and here I am

Still awake, still thinking of you. 

Indecisive, undecided,

A mess.