Un·der·state·ment
The false truth lies behind the tongue
The words you speak are hollow
The way you present yourself is fake
I was always told when you have wax wings and fly too high they start to melt
You can’t fake your true self
Tho hatred and doubt have become apart of who i am
Covering it up is a crime
Are you scared? That when people understand you they will run?
Because i am
If my appearance changes will people change their love for me?
I am scared that people who laugh with me will start laughing at me
With backs turned to me
I still feel accepted
Yet when people close their eyes i still feel seen
Searching for attention from myself
I feel like a hostage to my own doubt
Maybe i miss the illusion of myself being happy
I feel like i am distancing myself from everyone
Including myself
I am tired of having wax wings
I am tired of being two different people
I want to break free of my own lies
I am not happy with myself
I honestly want to scream
I want to drink and get high
But i drown myself in false happiness in fear of trouble
I blame myself for everything that has ever gone wrong
I ruined so many laughs and good times
I have ruined every relationship
And broke every promise
I am disgusting
My soul is paper and i am playing with fire for fun
I run everyone out of my life
Because i am scared
I am scared everyone i think is true
Well i am scared they will leave me too
They will hate my wax wings
They will hate me like i hate me
I have made choices i was suppose to avoid
I have made mistakes
I hate myself for those things
I am falling apart
My wax wings are melting
And i am screaming in fear
Please save me from myself
Don’t let me burn
Don’t let me melt away
I am melting...