My pain
My pain is real, my pain is deep
My pain is hidden and out of sight
My pain won\'t go away just because I\'m happy
It lives within me forever, especially at night
These times are hard these times are tough
Wondering if anything will be enough
Glittery lights and gifts and meals
What does it all mean, how do I feel
Holiday glow, holiday warmth
Those feelings of love and being together
That\'s not me, that\'s not what I want
But people expect me to subjugate my heart
Brave face, brave spirit
Maybe it will come true if I just get into it
Give to all, give til it hurts
Maybe I\'ve already been through the worst
Don\'t know what tomorrow will bring
But a new year offers a fresh spring
Don\'t let it get you, don\'t despair
The future can be better, even if on a dare
Love those who are close
Keep them in your heart
They\'ll get you through it
It will be alright, now\'s a fresh start