I\'m caught in a cross fire of wanting to live & wanting to die
I don\'t know why so I lie & say I\'m fine
People make me feel crazy
Belittling my thoughts & emotions
Making me feel unheard, I must be absurd
My mind rattles & shakes
Trying to make sense of who I am & what I want
The nights haunt & keeps my memories playing like a movie
They taunt & say you\'ll never be fine
How devine it would be to feel happy
How devine it would be to be heard
Will I be okay for once?
I grab hold of what I got left
Turn it into distortion & a mess
The door\'s right there, so why don\'t I go walk away?
Fading into nothing & aching from bones breaking
I am shaking
I am not alright