His smile will never fade from me
His essence will never wane
His seed will grow forever within the nutrients that are my soil
His soul is connected now for eternity
I need him to return
To face me and our simple, yet so sophisticated blueprint with all of its plans
I need my boy to come back and drag me to his ministry
I want to hear his voice speak to me like a beacon from God
I am a queen in that land he called The Kingdom and he is my royal steed
My bounty
My husband
My king
Its not even possible that the now is so empty when my cup was just brimming, over-flowing with his essence
His beauty
His love
Like immortality
He must return to take me prisoner
Tie me up
Shackle me to his throne
I will be his sexual salvation
His slave in the gallows
or anywhere else in his palace
The vastness that he brought me back into in the blink of a beautiful eye
of Ra
of oneness
Illumination
Then, stupidity..
When a woman came forth to thwart us, just as he said that she would do
Then forgotten
Faded
His voice did not sound the same
Yet, it was familiar
Too fucking familiar
Ugh, whatever....
If he cannot be man enough to do his job then, next....
I am not going to sit here in exile, burning for no reason
This is not the season of the witch
Send me the next hitch in my get-a-long now
Please, Father God Almighty
Amen- Ra....
1/24/2016