Silence is my struggle
That internal monster that gnaws away at my mind
Keeping me blind to the fact that it\'s all in my head
Telling me to be silent, when I should be loud
When I should be proud
Of me
Of who I am and who I want to be
My mouth is stitched up and I can\'t seem to say a word
But my mind is screaming at me to speak up
And say something
Anything
And show everyone I am here and I am here to stay
I look around and I see these people
I see these people who find it so easy to speak
They use their mouths like finely tuned instruments
And they\'re the musician
The musician who plays a beautiful symphony
I envy the music that they can make
When I use mine, it sounds foreign and strange
A cacophony, you could say
And so I never play
The silence
The monster
The jungle that is my mind
Keeps my sounds, the people, everything away
And it makes sure the stitches \'round my mouth stay tight and secure
It keeps the world just beyond my grasps
And so I never get to explain
How much I want them to stay
You see, I don\'t think you understand
Everybody tells me
\"Just speak!\"
\"It\'s easy\"
My reply is this:
\"I WISH it was so easy\"
But I say this in my head
Not aloud
Because I\'m sure you know by now
It\'s never out loud
Always in my head
Just out of reach of my lips
In my head, Where it all stays
Locked away by that monster
That monster that constantly feeds all my insecurities
So now you know the truth
Feel free to judge and criticize me
I won\'t say anything