Be what I want
Do what I\'m trying to do
Make my journals about me
And not about two
You
Come in and out
Yield round abouts of
Intoxicating air whenever you\'re near….
NO!
This is about me and mine
Creating and completing my life\'s design
Singing my life song
Don\'t get me wrong this girl is strong
Just tired…
I\'d like to walk away…
From the analyzing, critiquing, wondering - just want it at bay
For a moment of silence
No love noise
Just for awhile - let me try on this disappear style
After all, if what I really came to do
Is help you see & be the universe in you
Then you\'ll need to be the man in the mirror
While I step up to the plate - and syndicate
Your show
Let you see it on repeat - Here sit in my seat….
Day 1 - You don\'t notice b/c it falls within the guidelines
No true weekend contact - you\'re fine
Day 2 - You definitely don\'t trip b/c I\'m all about church
Getting my soul fed and nursed
Day 3 - A work day - its all about you
Filling in for the boss for week 2
Day 4 - You might start to wonder why
You haven\'t heard from me - you can\'t lie
You send a text but get no response
You\'re watching the clock - you weren\'t prepared for this nuance
Day 5 - And you still haven\'t heard back
Your mind is under attack WTF you wonder
You may call - perhaps leave a voice mail
B/c we\'re at the point I surely cannot tell the tale
Of what you might do...say….
Do you wonder if I went away?
Don\'t worry, I\'ll circle back around when I think you\'ve found
The hell I go through
When you make me fall for you
And leave
To another life - another you
Dad, provider & perfect lover too
Day 6 - I\'m still dancing to my own rhythm, my own drum
Day 7 - Still no contact - you feelin\' a bit undone? Where the hell am I coming from?
Go ahead and reminisce - Of our first dinner and that first kiss
Think back and forth and wonder what went wrong
Your life feeling like an Elvis song…
Did my baby leave me - a new place to dwell?
This b*tch better not be with another man in a hotel
Day 8 - Do you break your own rule and connect? I don\'t know…But I suspect
That while I\'m trying to do you
And master the lesson like so few
You might take it as a clue
That I don\'t have love for you
But that would be, could be far from true
Cause no one does me like you…daddy
I just needed to see - the strength within me.
And you needed to feel
If this sh*t is real
Or if you need to kill…it
I know this may be a bad time
This may feel a bit unkind
After all I help you unwind
That\'s when you find the time…
Here take this dime
And call me
But know I won\'t answer
It\'s not a game luv - in all candor
Its just me doing you
Don\'t be annoyed daddy- don\'t be mad
Just wanted you to see that this b*tch is bad.
But what if he doesn\'t call all week?
The game plan stays the same -just need a tweak
Like the Kubiak playbook when Manning was the look
I\'ll do my best to patch up the leak
Look to my defense to make some gains
To keep me sane
Praying your love won\'t wane
Wishing I was Pillowtalk and you were my Zayn
Damn daddy - if this works and we remain?
You\'ll want to change my name