They say I\'m selfless
But
I feel so damn helpless
Struggling to swim in a sea with countless
Ever so vast, expanding, boundless
Terror and fear, my screams are soundless
Dreaming of days when blue sky\'s are cloudless
***
Rain pours on, I have no prowess
I trudge alone, my pain is bowelless
The sky turns black, I stand there shroudless
My beaten soul, shakes and cowers
I smile and take it, bleeding and fightless
My eyes are blind, I\'m wandering sightless
The abuse is normal, I\'m weak and prideless
It is never ending, constant, tideless
***
The sun will shine the day I\'m lifeless
I\'m stuck living, an eternal crisis
My brain is full, breached and dreamless
Every threat made, superior and seamless
***
My lungs are punctured, heaving and breathless
The time is now, I\'m ready to end this