Lord - help me to forget the wrong stops along the way.
Those I trusted and disappointed me in some way
Men who promised to catch me when I fall
Is there any wonder they\'re friends after all?
One who kept promising more and more
The other who can\'t say \"love\" but opts for \"adore\"
They both play games with my head
Saying bs that need not be said
Did it hurt when I said I wanted others?
Did it hurt when you imagined me with another?
Or is the pain I want you to feel in my head?
I\'m overthinking playing the guessing game instead…
Of trying to reach out
Communicate
Rectify
Resolve
Oh wait! You\'re ignoring another call
Another text
I\'m perplexed
Genuine feelings you claim?
Well I\'m feeling something genuine this way - it\'s pain
Frustration
Irritation
I knew this was a \"no-no\"
But that damn curiosity of mine - you flashed green I yelled GO
And I sit hear waiting to be heard
Trying to stall
But your silence Says. It. All.
It says you had no thought of us truly being friends
B/c when I try to balance this sh*t
You want to put an end…
To the convo
The connection
The energy that got us stuck
You want the tension
And the tease
You just want to f*ck
You\'ll hide behind the \"situation\"
And I feel you - it\'s going down with your child
I just thought your exit would have a bit more style
Since optics are your game
It gives credence to the name
Validates your fame
I wish it was just you I could blame
For giving into this disloyal shame
My respect & admiration wane
But my heart Stays. The. Same.