If Only You Knew

If only you knew the pain you been putting me through.
The empty stares into space with thoughts for days.
The anxiety of others without your soothing presence.
The heavy weight tied on my heart as i drag it around.
My ocean of tears i\'m bearly holding back.
Don\'t know if i love you or hate you or hate you for loving you.
Memories of your touch as i lay through cold nights.
Insomnia hits while i weep through the nights.
Wishing we\'d never met
Knowing id never find another love so real so raw ever again.