Autumn is here
The leaves are brown and the sky is clear
I have lay in this bed for many a days
Staring at the window I\'m feeling betrayed
I slip into sleep and dream of better times
I dream of being a child and nursery rhymes
I have such an empty life
I miss my family I miss my wife
I think of holidays to exotic places
Getting drunk and all the disgraces
I pray for the end but it never comes
I hear life outside and my heart beats like a drum
I wish my legs would carry me away
But these wounds hold me at bay
I am one of gods children who went to battle
I watched my friends slaughtered like cattle
I wish I could end the terrible dreams
That leave me crying and break the night with screams
I want to be carried away by angels to heaven
To meet my maker the god I believe in
If god won\'t have me the devil will
I could make my peace with the people I killed