Living my life in a perpetual state of half sobriety
It\'s easier to keep going this way.
The alcohol keeps me sane,
The weed keeps me calm.
I\'ve lost so much
I don\'t have the will to keep going.
I don\'t have the desire to remember
Because all the memories bring is pain.
Sometimes I forget what sober feels like
And that\'s fine by me…
If I could never be sober again,
I don\'t think I\'d mind.
I want to forget the disaster
That has become my life.
I don\'t want to feel
Anything
Ever again.
I\'ve got slices in my wrist,
Words carved on my thigh,
And a self hatred deeper than the ocean.
If I could go to sleep and not wake up
It would be a blessing.
Living my life in a perpetual state of half sobriety
It\'s the only way for me to keep going.