When I fall in love,
It isn\'t slowly and gently,
Like waves crashing into the shore.
I fall like tripping on the top step
Of a flight of concrete stairs.
Bloody scrapes and broken bones.
The first time I saw you,
It was like there was no air in the room
And a vice grip on my heart.
Holding your hand
Was the best part of my day,
Even though you yanked it away
And I stumbled and fell to the ground.
Kissing you,
Made me forget who I was
But made me feel like a part
Of a bigger something, the universe, maybe?
And forget what you really looked like
Across a more impartial distance
Where I would be able
To tell it wasn\'t a smile, it was a smirk
I didn\'t hear you
Because I was too busy drawing hearts
With our names in them
And pretending things were okay
I didn\'t read between the lines
All I heard was that maybe you could love me
Someday
Somehow
Maybe if I was thinner, prettier, better
I didn\'t catch that you didn\'t love me now
As is
I never get why
I am so shocked when it all comes falling down
All around me like snow
Not the first fall,
More like that endless storm in February
Slushy, icy, cold and wet
That chills you to the bone
When I fall out of love
It\'s quick, like trying to hold a sheet of paper
When it\'s already ashes
And there\'s a strong wind blowing.
Maybe my intensity is all wrong...