It was perfect, the kind of love you felt course through your veins. It awakes the parts of yourself long thought dead. He would caress my cheek with so much love, I\'d smile to myself. Thinking yes; this is why i breath because he will take his hands and run them down my back as if they could take the ache away. Wipe my tears with his thumbs as he laughs and tells me how, he doesn\'t understand how someone so sad can be so beautiful. He would promise to help fight all the demons a life of broken promises installed in me. On nights when my chest would cave in, when breathing hurts, when my eyes were bloodshot and i couldn\'t see past the blurryness of my tears. He\'d hold me, take my punches awful words I\'d say. All because he knows what my own mind does to me, he\'d keep me safe. He\'d keep me warm, i was never cold. Then when he would lean in to kiss me he whispered in my ear \"Only in your dreams\" So here i am waking up alone, getting ready to go to school, watching him walk around with his friends , smile like its the only thing he knows. And I\'d look at him like he could be my hope, my salvation. Someone to fight the all day depression and 3am suicidal thoughts. But he will never be, he will never caress my cheek, he will never hold me. I will always be alone. \"Only in my dreams\" i whisper with tears running down my face. I want to sleep forever because I\'m so cold, so cold.