I\'ve done everything I can
to show him that I\'m his man
I\'ve been his lover
His shoulder
His trustworthy friend
I can\'t believe that six months later we are living separate lives
That I am who he blames for his suffering and we are back where we were, at odds, again
He went there and told me he loves me
I tried to let his words float over my head and go away
I knew at that moment while we were in the throngs of passion that it was the last thing he wanted to say
Things were looking up for me, finally, at long last
He kept recapping all of the fond memories we have shared in our past
I could see our adversaries taking their forms, creating our next barricade
Perhaps he was in on it all along and I was too dumb to notice that I was being played
I don\'t remember him ever being so harsh before
I cannot understand how he could be suddenly so cruel
An easy target
An idiot
I am
That\'s why he always comes back for more
He finds me when I am at my low
Clinging to my core
I guess I can\'t blame him for choosing me
An energy vampire must have their prey
I just want to move forward and forget
I can\'t let my thoughts of him keep consuming my entire day
I\'m not going to call him
I\'m not going to cry
I\'ll take back my spirit
I\'ll let my love for him die
I\'ve been here before
It\'s a familiar place
A nightmare world where all I can see is his face
I don\'t understand why he\'s always fooled by the ruse
Maybe he just likes to abuse me
Well, I no longer care what he likes
I am taking a stand
He never learns and neither do I
I won\'t let him continue to pluck my wings just so that he\'s able to fly
All he can do is deny me of his love....
11/13/2016