The worst part about having anxiety
is not being able to acknowledge you
have anxiety because thinking about anxiety
causes anxiety.
I can\'t pinpoint the exact moment I started having anxiety
because I don\'t feel anxiety just appears,
but instead builds up like a volcano
exploding when all the stress has
reached max capacity
and floods your organs like the streets of Pompeii
with panic attacks and suicide.
My mind is like a swimming pool
only it\'s filled with darkness and pain
instead of sunshine and cool, wet
feelings of being content.
But my mind is not tangible
and can be argued doesn\'t exist
and therefore cannot be sick.
But my brain,
my brain is paralyzed by sick
because it IS tangible and it CAN\'T be argued doesn\'t exist
because I have held a brain.
I have felt it.
But in reality, my brain isn\'t paralyzed.
It\'s fully functioning,
so much so that it\'s on full alert,
constantly ticking.
But my mind,
my mind has to exist.
But since it controls my thoughts,
it would be better if it didn\'t.
J.B Watson argued our mind is connected to our vocal chords.
Which makes sense because my mind is so sick
and I can\'t speak.