Every fucking time I start to let my mind drift into thought processes, it always floats like a little love cloud over an image of his face
Why is he all that I can see?
There are so many out there for me to love
Nobody seems to fit like a glove like he does
I would love for someone new to come sweep me up off of my feet
The heat of desire is killing me
I\'m not sorry, for I have never changed
It is a bit strange to me that he had such a sudden turn of heart
He does this every damned time
He makes me want to beg him
At least for valid reasons for tormenting me so
He thinks he knows me so well
He\'s right
and he\'s wrong
All at the same time
I have done nothing to deserve this lingering pain
I beg God to send down the rain from the Heavens
To cleanse me of this blockage
To make me pure
To find a way to make him pay without him being harmed
My weaponry I have disarmed when it comes to love
For, peace is the only answer
Forgiveness is a given with me
It is almost as though he went out of his way to start a feud that neither of us could ever win
A spinning bottle I have become
Bounding through the minutes of life like they are nothing to me
It\'s next to impossible for me to move forward when all that I can see is what\'s being left behind
Painting pictures with the power of my mind
Writing words that will echo throughout the boundaries of time
Creating incidents that have yet to find me using what lessons I have bothered to learn
Burning away anything that happens to be leftover
Fire is a cleanser
A blessing
A gift
Lifting myself up from where he threw me down and around for a couple of loops
This is my time
To power up
To get strong
To re-group from the wreckage of the blast
I will rise
I will succeed
I will conquer my need to be loved....
11/20/2016