I\'m Stuck
Stuck here between two paths
Two decisions
I can only make one
But which?
Which should I choose?
Someone will be unhappy in each
Each time I imagine it
Someone gets hurt
And it always includes me
Why do life changing decisions have to be so difficult?
Why can\'t I just be happy
With no one questioning me
Because no one tells me the same things
And I\'m left wondering
I shouldn\'t be stuck here
This shouldn\'t be this hard
I shouldn\'t have to choose between these decisions
I\'m too young to deal with this
Why do I have to stress over this so much?!
It\'s not like anyone will be honest
They don\'t want to tell me what they really think
They don\'t want to hurt me
They fear they will hurt me
I will be hurting either way
I do have fears
Some petty, yes
But this is not petty in my opinion
I fear the future
I fear all of the \"what ifs\"
The \"what ifs\" of life
Because I know what goes around comes around
And I don\'t want to get stabbed
Stabbed in the back
By a knife that I threw
I just want to be in my own bubble
Where everything can be happy
I fear life is going back to the hell it was before
Maybe slightly worse
Depending on my choice
I want it to go quickly
Like ripping off a band-aid
But I know it won\'t be that simple
Nothing ever is
All pain has to linger
No matter what I choose
I\'m sure I\'ll get myself hurt
No matter what I think of
Every time someone gets hurt
More people than just me
I don\'t want others to hurt
It will cause me more pain than just my own
It would break my heart more
More than I know this decision might
\"Might\" what a useful word
I wish I could control
How I feel and how things will affect me
What a world that would be...
If I could find a way to walk away happy
I would
I can\'t
I know it
There is too much untold information
Very very important information
That I am worried will be taken badly
Why can\'t this be easier
No pain
No fear
No body left unhappy
Just peace...