I stay awake at night
Pondering what is wrong with me
I mean there must be something, right?
I mean how can there not be?
I feel like I give and give
And I try to better myself
But I\'m still alone
I was raised to be independent
To not rely on anyone else
To be self sufficient
And maybe I learnt it a little too well
Because now all I want is to walk the earth
With someone whom I love and whom loves me
Someone who I can open up to
And be my true self
Someone who betters me and whom I better
But there has to be something wrong with me
Because no man seems to want that
At least with me
I mean I have quite a few friends
Whom are male
My best friend is a guy
But to others I suppose that I\'m considered undesirable
I don\'t understand
Am I doing something wrong
Is it because Im not a size 4
Or is it because my personality is too much