she does not need to keep
you informed, does she?
suddenly you are furious
that she does not even care
all she cares about is death
she does not care about life
she finds death irresistible
you take a step towards her
you are filled with anger
you keep your promise,
but she doesn’t keep hers
she studies me,
she looks at my clenched fist
she tilts her head,
her next words shock me,
“death, will take me,
I will leave this world,
you think I fear death?
no, I fear life,
I fear you,
let death take me,
for my time is up.”
her words,
take the air from my lungs,
how can she not fear death?
for I sure do
she gives me a scornful glance,
“death is my friend,
yet you do not know,
death will take me,
away from you,
I made it worthwhile,
well I was here,
but I have been destroyed,
from deep within,
the candles are destroyed,
the fires burnt out
I am not angry,
I am pleased,
that death would want someone like me,
I will leave this place,
I am filled with relief,
the anger and fury,
leave my body
I told you,
that I was leaving,
I know you’ll be crushed,
but like I said,
death is calling to me.”
I feel heavy,
I rub the drips (tears) out of my eyes
I lean back,
staring at her
I should be worried,
but I’m not
and now I know
a shudder runs through me
for I do not understand
how someone cannot fear death
is she really willing to risk it?
she checks my face
for any signs of relief
but all I can give her
is the scornful glance
she gave me
I feel suffocated
my lungs close up
I wince at the thought
of death taking her
she’s a fool
I think of the memories
is that why,
she’s been so distant
we both become silent
she’s long gone now
death has took her
and she’s never coming back