I miss you.
Oh God how I miss everything about you
You always had the best laugh
Contagious and cute
Your skin was softer than mine, and I was obsessed with feeling it
I want to remember that feeling. So bad.
Your lips were smooth like eating ice cream off a spoon
It was easy to kiss you
You touched me like a painter working on their \'masterpiece\'
It was always so delicate and I couldn\'t help but throw my head back
You were kind and your words proved it
That time when you laid above me and sang our song,
and stared into my eyes,
and meant every lyric,
and finished by saying
I want that song played at our wedding
Thinking about it now, I cry
It sucks that I reminisce in the good and block out the bad
I seem to forget when you would cancel plans for your friends instead of me
When you had multiple conversations through text with girls who were only friends
I forget that you ignored me during and argument saying
We\'ll talk about it tomorrow
I forget about the nights after nights that I cried over you
I forget all of the bad
I think about all of the good and it\'s like,
I miss you
And I hate seeing you around now.
I hate fighting the urge to walk up to you and confess my love
I hate lying to my friends that I\'m over you,
lying to myself
lying over and over thinking that it\'ll help me move on
because it hasn\'t
and I don\'t think it will.
And there\'s a million and one questions racing through my mind
Are you okay
Do you miss me
Are you feeling the way I am right now
Do you ever think about me
I leave you be because you claim to be happy,
and I truly do want that for you.
I believe in you so much
I see the potential that you have as a decent human being
You\'re so smart and I can\'t wait to see what you accomplish in life
It\'s just hard to realize that no matter what you accomplish in life,
I don\'t get to be there for it.
It wasn\'t in God\'s way.
Acceptance is hard and scary
It\'s a long process that I struggle with
It\'s just that no matter how hard I try,
I miss you.