Left behind
Outside the leaves crunch beneath my feet
The wind whispers in my ear as the cold wraps around me in the air
It\'s dark but I can see
I listen to everything
As they seem to echo in the emptiness beside me
Where you once stood by my side
So I listen
To the cars and crickets
And the whispers that aren\'t really there
It\'s quiet but so loud
How would I not hear
How could I let you slip between my fingers like water
How could I not hear your cry for help
Because silence is the loudest scream
All the signs were there
You just did too well covering them up
The look in your eyes
Is like a million stars in the night sky `
I could stare at them all day
And listen to you talk
I thought I knew everything
When really I knew nothing
Butt you let me believe you were ok
When we both knew I could save you
But it\'s ok
I forgive you because I know you tried
And I know your pain was to much to bear alone
And you felt as though you had to hold the whole world on your shoulders
I listen before
But not too closely enough
And know it\'s all I do is listen
Perhaps that in honor of you
I should say I\'m sorry it had to be you
And then move on
But here is no moving on from this
Because when you left
You took a piece of me with you
And i’m so sorry I couldn’t reach you until it was too late to turn back
I never heard you coming
Then out of the blue
And you broke me
When neither of us knew
And now i’m afraid of forgetting you
But you can never forget someone who gave you so much to remember
I guess it’s true
You never know what you have until it’s gone
How could it be they ask
When they\'re the ones who made us realize it would never work
Because of them
No matter how hard I tried
So I may be wrong
But I don’t think they have the right to be upset
Because they never knew you like I did
They were the ones who set us off track
And I don’t have to wonder what you would say about it
Even if I was the only one
Who really listened and cared
It never worked
And it never would have
So I hang my head in silence
If only I had known
If only you had trusted me
I could have seen the signs
I choose not to
Sometimes I half expect you to show up
And I can still picture you in places
And so I was the one who was left behind
But neither of us are to blame
And even if you only left us with a fraction of your pain
We are both victims
Of a horrid crime
That took the life that mattered most
And left us all alone
I just hope you know
That wherever you go
I will always love you
And that if I had known it was this bad
I would have traded lives
So I walk alone
A blank stare on my face
Because I knew and should have known
Now it\'s emptiness
Silence
As I walk among the leaves
Hoping you would never have to leave