Silently sitting at the table
Mind manners
Do not move out of place
Make no sound
We work without words
We speak in our minds
We cry in our hearts
We move without meaning
Think nothing of yourself
That is what is drilled into me
Since day one, for both of us
Everything, for everyone else
I smile and walk as if
I\'m not suffering inside
I\'m okay, I am normal
Just like you, yeah, like you
You ask, I do
If I don\'t, I suffer
But it leads to being used
Using my weakness
I walk in straight lines
I speak, never stutter
My heart is locked
Just as it was, so long ago
Another day, just the same
You walked in, a ray of light
Full of energy, enthusiasm
I\'m not like you, You\'re okay
I turn away, my heart must remain
Locked, sealed, no one will know
That\'s okay, I\'m like you, yeah, just like you
Never burden others, because that\'s what I am
But you knocked on the door
That small ray of light
You\'re chipping away
You\'re taking my hands
You can\'t know
My burden.
You can\'t see
The scars on my back.
Because you\'re still okay
By not telling, will you hate me?
Will telling you be a burden?
Or will it be a burden to keep quiet?
My thoughts are so lost
The pain is getting worse
Why is it a crime, to burden?
Isn\'t that life?
That small ray of light
You\'re changing me
Is that okay?
Aren\'t I a burden?
Born and raised
One might call
A professional wallflower
Only noticed when wanted
The ray of light has grown
She is the sun
A ball of light, so bright
But I cannot shield my eyes
I can\'t look away
It\'s so beautiful
My lock is gone
Stone walls have fallen
I should have looked deeper
For she has scars too
But she can move on
While I trail behind
She can\'t be mine
She is life
Showing the world her scars
While I cover my marks
But she is saying I\'m hers
Is it a burden to belong?
I wish I could caste these thoughts away
I need to tear from the past
For her
For him
For me
For them
I think I\'m okay
But I\'m not like you, no
I am the shadow, the dark
That comes after the sun, always close behind