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My biggest fear was that our connection wasn\'t real.
Tongue tied and twisted up in all the things I feel.
I never wanted to be right.
I never wanted it to be a fight.
I just needed to understand how, you were turning me to nothing.
I wasn\'t the one who turned it into something
But I understand now.
I\'m going to leave you alone.
If I see you, I won\'t bother you and I\'ll walk the other way homebound.
Deflated with tired frustrations for when you used to sleep, next to me,
Not a peep, faded away in dreams and wrapped around your body
Complete.
Thought I was connecting, when you were really just messing around?
Collecting moments, not the case?
When I can still see your face
My mistake for thinking your heart may have had some space.
If I think of you, I will think of a factory where I was recalled, to have myself taken apart
Disassembly for this mangled, defeated heart
I will wash my clothes and get your smell out of them,
I don\'t want to fall asleep crying again.
I will throw away your paper place mat butterfly,
That i swore to myself i would keep it to smile, until the day that i die.
I will have your taste out of my mouth.
I will take my love out of your house.
This aching in my chest will subside.
I will forget about your voice, your eyes, your lies.
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J.K.H