“i love you” they said
you know i love you, you know id die for you
but can’t you see I’m bleeding out for you
every drop is crashing like a billion tons on my heart
every brain cell in on fire, all because you left me in dark
I’m already falling
i’ve already jumped
I’m already calling
calling your name
from a million miles away
my confidence hasn\'t reached my mind
but I’m feeling fine
I’m still a kid
none of the death has hit my head
but dreading when it sinks in
all i’ll i have is to just forget
i’ve been worshipping earthly beings
that cannot love
but are still reigning
God is the only love i know
all i can do is pray for her
all i’ll have of her is to just...
just forget
my life isn’t in my hands i say to myself
but everything i’ve felt says otherwise
and every drop feels like a mistake
or just another lie i fall over
the vibe
the vibe she gives me
like a feeling in my body thats just sitting and seething
it doesn’t feel like I’m bleeding
I’m past my bodily being
everything she does has a string and every feeling i feel has a knife in my heart
that i can’t take out
or else i’ll fall apart
i’ll loose my part
in this game she plays
or this symphony she composing what she doesn’t realize the song has to end
i will not defend my point of view
in this war
over court dates and manipulating mind of this child’s generation
i’ve fought for my life
you can’t take that away
not in a million years
never on a sunny day
your puppet strings can’t even graze my thoughts of control
my brain waves of anti condemnation
people in suits telling me the people in the white robes make the decisions
don’t they see this
my mother has proven her monstrosity
do not mistake this for a broken hearted love poem
this is so much more
a mothers who has left me in a black hole
so i fought for my life
all to escape this invisible knife
she has set upon me to control my life
theres nothing there i soon realize
no more than bottles and pills swallowed by her so she may escape her franchise
thinking everythings normal
the truth is nasty
it reveals its self when the show begins
when blood red curtains fall
this is life or death
you have two choices
you don’t want to be apart of this show
be a friend of the truth ?
or let your lies grow ?