So I’m not sleeping very well
Usually up until at least 3am every night
My mind won’t slow down
My legs don’t keep still
My body aches and yearns so much for my fantasies to become reality
My heart races
Breathing goes heavier
Toes curl
Body quivers in the quilt
It’s getting Warmer
I literally am struggling to gulp and swallow
Mouth is drying up
I long to be kissed
Long to be touched
I still can’t keep still
Getting full body tingles
I lay here at night, just thinking about my new journey , researching into the BDSM world
I’ve had submissive thoughts for years
I just didn’t know what they meant
I feel well and truly awakened
Like I’ve found myself
Found where I truly belong
I get huge waves of emotion just thinking about it , it consumes me
That massive wave crashes against my skin and I literally cry i want it so much
“Don’t rush dear child , you cannot rush to find your Dom , you have only just found yourself! Small steady steps\" says the voice in my head
This is my new journey
Part of me feels free
But part of me is trapped
Longing to be found and owned
I need it so much
My body aches for it
It just can\'t keep still
I not only crave it physically, but emotionally too
I believe it will happen
Yet I still cry
I cry because I feel passionate that this is who I truly am
I’m a Submissive
I’m home
Yet I’m waiting to be found