Walls back up
Firmly in place
I thought I wanted to feel again...
I was wrong.
The numbness is much easier
Than this devastation.
That\'s one mistake
I won\'t let myself make
Again.
I refuse to let my guard down
I refuse to be vulnerable
I refuse to hope.
The mask slides back into place
And honestly
It\'s a relief.
My walls are back up
Firmly in place
Because God knows
The next time they come down
They\'ll shatter me with them.