I was once a social butterfly
Bouncing around from flower to flower
Never resting in one spot for any longer than I had to
Now, it\'s like that person is dead
Always in the same place
Fear overcomes my will to tread anywhere
I am back in my cocoon
Wondering if I am able to change back into a creepy caterpillar
I suppose that it is natural for this to occur, since I have not made use of my wings in so long
Silence
Has over-shadowed
My song
Still, even in all my loneliness, I still go out of my way to make myself sing
I can hear the bells of freedom ringing clearly
I did nothing to deserve all of this, and that alone is why I know that this is not really my fate
I have forgotten my love for the guardians of the frozen gate
Now, I sit here in limbo everyday
For, I have nothing else to do but wait
My metamorphosis is on hold until I can correctly formulate a picture in my mind of what I wish to become
I am numb
I am blind
I am seriously so far behind
I have been cracked wide open like an egg, oozing all of the phlegm that once protected my yolk
Exposing all I have forever kept hidden
So that these parasites I am over-ridden with can see that they are wrong
I am only what I have said that I am all along
This bitter chase
I have always worn the exact truth proudly upon my face
Ok, you won!
You have managed to make me feel like a disgrace
So, now, get the fuck up out of my way so that I can change that
I have every fucking right to live
I have nothing left to be envious of
No sympathy left to give
There it is, my great exposure
The one you have all so desperately have wanted to see
I am so sorry to have disappointed you all
I have never been anyone but me
I have never had any reason to hide
I have never lied to any of you until now...
8/21/2014