riahbear

This poem doesn\'t have a name but its for somebody that I used to know. Explicit-ish.

You have no idea how nice it is waking up alone and I’m fully clothed(its really such a relief)

All those times you woke me up to bone

You were etched all over my soul

And baby now I\'m falling in love with going to bed on my own

 

Love or lust whatever it was it just wasn’t for us

You made me think I could trust you

Even though you said I was dumb

 

In a sick way I hope you end up suffering

I hope you realize the way you acted tougher

just caused me to see you were really rough with me

I hope you can’t go to sleep

with the crazy thoughts inside your head

I hope you know you made me weak,

and I won’t be strong until your dead

 

and you probably didn’t know I now suffer from ptsd, depression and anxiety.

All because you had to f*ck with me

You destroyed my view on reality

You’ve made sleep seem like the best thing to me

And now I over eat because you were always starving me

 

I never acknowledged the abuse because I thought I was in love with you

I don’t understand why I’m just now seeing the truth

 

Love, or lust whatever it was it really wasn’t for us..

I wish you knew how hard it was

Never knowing when to give up

You were always the worst of us

You played me &made me think I was dumb

I just know you’re never gonna be someone

 

I tried to numb the pain, remember how many times I walked away

I loved you babe

But you were a needle in my vein

The heroin to my brain

You taught me to believe in hate

Now all I want to say to you

Is f*ck you and have a nice day