I
Everyday wasting of hours
a house that is called home
a broken mirror
the shadow that stares back
the rain clouds lurk above
stairs are an escape
a room above the clouds
silent cries are drowned by air
water saves the drowning
a single drop saves a second
lakes are worth a thousand
rivers are worth hundreds
oceans are worth billions
clouds last forever
my hours are limited, my minutes are lost, my seconds forgotten
II
my minutes wander from me
a room just like any other
a sky blue as sea
it calls to me
a thousand panes of glass
a world that doesn’t exist
above a world that does
dreams are nightmares
nightmares are dreams
anger controls the door
fear controls window
I control my feet
The want of interaction
But the comfort of loneliness
The knowledge of the unknown
Blocks the stairs
my hours are gone, my minutes given, my seconds ignored
III
The seconds
Decisions of answers
Questions released
Paths washed away
Old loves haunt me
New loves control me
My always loves forever control my decisions
A short leash till I reach the end
A path that I am caged into
a cozy heart
an outer case
the seconds bury
five billion seconds of thoughts
regret for 8 million
a child’s imagination
an adult’s reality
my hours are controlled, my minutes are restrained, my seconds manipulated
IV
freedom is a curse
it haunts my night
freedom is a blessing
it grows my thoughts
a spirit of control fights me
freedom guards me
a vessel waits for me
all of nature welcomes me
solitude is a dream
till it grows lonely
family is a dream
till they grow expectant
a few voices scream at me
memories keep me sane
my time is wasted
my moments are not mine
gone, controlled, limited
given, restrained, lost
ignored, manipulated, forgotten
my time is spent.