Copyright ©2017 Stephanie R Schubert
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Do you ever feel like no cares
like they don’t notice
How far down you are
They don’t know how comforting
The thought of blowing your head off in the shower feels
Of course I wouldn’t do that
But there comes a time
when you have had enough of being ignored
Enough of reaching out to only be denied
Enough of investing your energy, your time, your life
into things that no one cares about
Into things that never come back to you
There is a reason ROI is concept
Everybody wants something in return for what they do, give, spend, and invest in
I don’t feel like I have a lot of ROI in my life right now
I feel empty
No one gets to tell me how I feel
Or why I should not feel that way
No one gets to tell me who I am
Or why I feel the things I do
So fuck it
On to the next waste of my time
On to the next un-fulfilling activity
Onwards to nothing
Why do I even bother
That is the real question
The answer I guess is that
some days I just want to die