Wake up, for me, and let the first thought be
Of your body hanging daintily, lightly, and free
Gasp for me and feel the noose around your throat
Scratch at your skin and cry out to an indifferent god
Go outside and try to talk, but have every racing thought accosted
By ghoulish images of your grisly corpse
Mutilated, dismembered, battered, broken
Remind yourself for me that you are a terrible person
Who can’t get out of bed, whose only waking thoughts
Are of suicide, of freedom that only death can grant
Remember for me that you have no hope inside,
That you have no reason to remain alive any longer
That this dark tunnel has no light and no end
Let every waking moment be a reminder of how you have failed everyone
Let your hatred for God and the world He threw you into
Fester until you become a misanthrope who hates the world
“because the world hates him.”
Remember for me all those stupid promises you made
That “you won’t do anything to hurt yourself”
Even though you know that when the time comes,
It will have meant nothing
Remember for me, every other time you’ve failed to attempt
And ended up wasting your friend’s time with your worthless struggle
Remember for me that your parents would rather have you dead than as a failure
Remember for me that your friends don’t really care about your pain
Remember for me that you are alone and will never have a home
Remember for me that you mean NOTHING to ANYONE
Remember for me that feeling of wanting to tear your eyes out and rip off your jaw
Remember for me that the unfortunate person who has to scrape
Your meaty bits off of the street where you land
Will have more contempt for you than God