kscpoetry

i hope it was worth it.

i hope it was worth it. 

the echoing innocence created a wall of happiness.
the purity of a young mind took over yet again.
days went on and on
and on,
until each moment felt slower, more adult like.
the decreasing uncertainty became this reality i had been unaware of for so long.
but,
once you open your eyes to the crumbling ash between your fingers,
the world seems
bleak.
now, 

i live in a world filled with nothingness and confusion,
a place where i trust no one and no one trusts me.
i long for the feeling of not being able to feel,

so the love i have for you doesn’t dominate every other feeling that plagues me.
i live a life of pure unhappiness.
and,

it\'s because of you,

and the decisions you made.
you thought if you were happy, i would be too.
you wanted this,
for you.
and that\'s okay.
just let me ask you:

was it worth it?
-the feeling of pain resurrected