I\'ve taken on the task of writing about my emotions
My thoughts
My feelings
My goals
My aspirations
My sorrows
I feel like I\'m in a constant whirlwind of emotions
One day up, one day down
Round, and round, and round, and round
The circular motion of this continuous roller coaster makes me feel dizzy.
Nauseous in fact.
Medication won\'t help.
I feel empty. I feel like a failure. I feel...
I feel helpless.
Why do I feel sorry for myself?! Why?!
I hate feeling piteous of my own self.
I know I can change my situation … I know I can!
I think I can?
Constantly pray for guidance
For the opportunity to one day discover my purpose in the world
Who am I?
Why am I here?
What is my calling?
Only God knows.
All I want is to feel a glimpse of tranquillity
All I want is to live in my own utopia..
Is that too much to ask for?
I\'m teaching myself not to trust in me but to trust in God
I\'m drawing myself closer to him. Fighting for a relationship with him.
Seeking words of wisdom from his holy scripture.
Maybe I\'ll feel a sense of normality.
Seek God within yourself! Seek God within your heart! Within mine!
That\'s how I know I will gain prosperity.
That’s WHEN I’ll know who I am.