The zone
that I am in is beyond anything else that I ever could have imagined
Perfection is peaking itself out with every motion that I make
For the sake of sanctity, I still give in to those freaks who fear the grave
Running in circles, trying to save themselves from standing in redemption in the eyes of God
The cone of power that I have raised almost single-handedly
Until this miracle of a man returned to my world of hidden realities
His energy seems to free me in ways that I never knew even existed
Here, in my zone, where he has enlisted himself once more
Before, this atmosphere was nowhere to be found
I would, nonetheless, hover around...
Watching over him still, in my own little way
Noticing all the little hidden innuendos
His hair
His make-up
The perfect taste in his way to dress
But, I was a fucking raging mess back then, and before I could even count to ten, he was gone...
Always fond memories in the spaces that exist in between
An obscene reality
Years went by
The hours flew
The ideas of ever seeing him again became faded and few
Right now, in this moment, I gaze up into the multi-colored atmosphere
He is here with me
Things are all so beautiful that nothing at all really seems clear
Our cross roads, finally reached and pardoned with
Euphoria exists in my atmosphere, but there is beast that still insists upon trying to enter
It is beyond ridiculous
Like I would ever be so insipid in my brain again as to not allow myself to ascertain my every footstep
Led blindly into the where after, wherever the hell that even is
\"Mi amore don\'t you know, my love I want you soooo\"...
Words of the song in the background play on
In the middle of a dense rain forest
A jungle with wildlife abound
Surrounding me
No privacy, EVER, it seems....
We must be getting the sex outta the way by way of our forgotten dreams
Patience has virtually found its way into me somewhat..
I guess, I think it has, maybe...
Okay, I will admit it...I am not a patient person at all
But, I still try to be, for I have already fallen
He is on to me completely now, and I am kinda glad to know it
We sit here and converse without our mouths ever opening
It\'s beautiful
It\'s crazy
I think that it just may be even real
I tend to treat it like a precious flower that is soon to blossom
The cross-roads, where we have met up once again
But, this time, it is much more than it has ever before been
I must have made myself accountable
I must have somehow negated the times when I have blatantly sinned
Men are fucking everywhere
But, right now I can only see one
The Sun has been glowing brighter with each passing day spent dancing with the currents of the wind
In the same place where I have always been
Only now, I have something with me that must have forever been missing....
5/12/2011