lovelydarkanddeep

Why did you ask when you already know?

I just love the times when someone who doesn\'t care about me, asks, \"Hey how are you?\" or \"Are you okay?\", I\'m tempted to say this:

\"Well my best friend just put her hand over my heart, reached into my chest, took hold of my heart, and crushed it to dust in front of me. Then proceed to make me watch her interact with whom I have been replaced. 

When i tried to tell the girl I love more than anything, how much I truly love her, she misinterpreted my words and told me her boyfriend knows how lucky he is. 

I didn\'t think a heart could break, even after it had been crushed to dust, but it did. 

I have no confidence in myself, and I completely hate myself. 

My dad likes to drink and chew and sometimes, walks out of the house. 

So now I\'m just waiting for the day he leaves, and doesn\'t decide to come back.

And the next time I see the girl I love, she will look past me and proceed to break me and my confidence into a thousand pieces every day for the next months.

And again, just letting myself fall into the abyss of misery my best friend has fortuned me with. And every day spent wondering what I did wrong, and why I can\'t keep friends, and Why, why, have I suddenly changed from liked by everyone, to unnoticed by everyone.\"

But yeah, I\'m doing great, how about you.