I can feel her grip loosen by the day.. The want in her eyes seems to be disappearing, it\'s terrifying. Don\'t know what to do, don\'t know what to say. Didn\'t know I could feel so empty but so serenaded in pain. Wanting her, needing her.. Almost dying for her to say my name. She looks at me, but it doesn\'t feel the same...
I wanted to be the one she misses, the one she remembers or thinks of whenever any song comes on.. Praying I\'m the one she\'s wanting, needing.. But when I open my eyes, I feel afraid. Does she want to be here as bad as I want her to? Is she already gone?
Does her torturer take her back into sick abuse? Did every tight knot she tied when I was at my ends come loose? Don\'t sink back into what sunk you.. Got you to surface, made you float.. Drug you to shore, breathed life and all of this love into you. Was in not enough...? How could you want more....?
Just because I started there, doesn\'t mean I stopped. I\'ll always love you no matter how many times you\'re in pain, no matter how many times your heart is dropped. Whether its me or not. Sometimes I\'ve been tired.. But please just take notice how I never gave up, no matter how much it took or how hard it got.