As the twilight reaches its fertile blossoming, the daylight comes closer and closer to birth
Out here, right in the middle of the semi-pure darkness, I still bask in the radiance of the light
Knowing suddenly somehow where I am going and that I have the right to have done all that I have done
I have begun to see all of my short-comings for exactly what they are and always have beeI don\'t see them as evil specters who have their sights on burning me
Finally, I have started earning all of my own merits
My essence, I bear almost in its entirety now
No place for me to run to, because all I would do there is hide
The darkness has never been known to be anything close to naive
He is a brilliant little vampire
A sponge who has always existed
Seems to take for ever when you are waiting and grieving simultaneously
Forever trying to retrieve all of the chances that my blindness has stolen from me
The vengeance and betrayal I have suffered through was never anything more than weak, mindless rage
An echo can be heard now, however soft and faint
A sorrowful coo that hides in the shadows that still have the gumption to remain standing in opposition to the Sun
It gets its sick jollies off of my anger
Its idea of fun is observing me as I track down everything so as to dissect their very origins
A mad scientist, sprinting out the front door of hope to puke my hypothesis out upon the blistering pavement
All of the times I have wasted foolishly kicking myself in the ass for absolutely nothing other than to find a safe haven
A welcoming place upon which to place the blame
Thus, the idiotic games continue to play on everywhere
Spare me the fucking mellow-drama, please!
We all need to get down on our hands and knees and start praying for forgiveness for ourselves....
4/20/2007